On the Verge

Music from the Heart: More of Jesus by Mylon LeFevre & Broken Heart

We are created for more. More glory, more greatness, more of the the manifest presence of God in every moment in which we draw breath. Why, then, do I so often feel like I am waiting for something to happen, like I’m chasing after some elusive destiny that will never be mine?

Recently I seem to keep hearing things like, “You’re on the verge of something,” and “Breakthrough is coming.” My frustrated reply to these sentiments goes something like this: “I’m TIRED of being ‘on the verge’ of something! I want to be right smack dab in the middle of something!”

The “something” here is a living, breathing, life-altering move of God – in me, on me, all over me, and through me. Where IS that? And WHY is it not RIGHT HERE – RIGHT NOW?

I don’t pretend for a nanosecond to know the answer to any of these questions. All I can offer is the desperate cry of a heart that is craving more – more of everything God is and does and has for me, His daughter.

The dictionary defines “verge” as, among other things, “a limiting belt, strip or border of something.” Hmmm. Is it possible that my being always “on the verge” of some great move of God in my life somehow indicates that there is a “limiting border” that is held in place by, oh I don’t know, maybe … me? Could it be that there is something in me that is the reason why that breakthrough has not yet materialized? Perhaps a lack of faith, or a sense of unworthiness to be the recipient of all God has for me, or maybe plain and simple fear. Whatever it is, I want it gone.

What about you? What is it that hinders you from all that God longs to do in you and through you? Do you feel like you are always “on the verge” of something where God’s purposes and plans for your life are concerned? Do you long to press past the “verge” and dive head-first into the living, breathing, life-altering move of God in you, on you, all over you, and through you – and all that goes with it? Are you craving more?

Me, too. So, what do we do now? I don’t exactly know, but it is probably something different for you than it is for me. Whatever it is, let’s ask God to reveal it, then let’s do it! That sounds simple enough, doesn’t it? Can it really be that easy? Have we (I’m speaking primarily to myself here) really made things so stinking complicated and involved that we have missed the obvious – pray and obey? Ummm, next question, please.

Seriously, though, I’m ready to get on with whatever comes next. I’m thinking along the lines of some strategically placed dynamite and blasting this “limiting border” to smithereens. You in?