Life on the Edge

Music from the Heart: How He Loves Us by Kim Walker

Surrender and Trust. They stand together facing me, hand in hand. Each extends the remaining hand to me, inviting me to join them in a circle of three. Their intent is to lead me to the edge of my comfort zone and coax me to jump out into the vast abyss of possibility that is my destiny.

I have been here before, with these same two companions. Each leap takes me to a deeper level of awareness of His presence and His plan for my life. Why, then, do I even hesitate when I find myself facing this decision again? Why haven’t I already jumped?

For me, it is a question of will. Whose will am I truly committed to – mine or His?

Yesterday, as our pastor was closing his message on the Lord’s Prayer, he offered the following interpretation of the phrase, “Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven”:

In my heart, at this moment, this is a matter of surrendering even my deepest desires and most extravagant dreams back to the One who placed them in my heart. This is not as easy as it sounds, but I must keep reminding myself that to give them back over to Him does not mean giving up on the dream. It means giving up on being in control of the dream.

I choose to follow the example of our spiritual father, Abraham, as he accompanied his son, Isaac, up the mountain. He was fully prepared to put the boy to death in obedience to the Lord, but he also was equally prepared for a substitute sacrifice to be provided. I choose to lay my dreams down at His feet, and I have the same assurance that what the Lord returns to me will be His good, pleasing and perfect will for me.

Ultimately, it is the knowledge and experience of His amazing, unimaginable, crazy love for me that enables me to relinquish even those things most precious to me back to Him.

Surrender and Trust are becoming closer friends to me, and I find myself leaning on them for strength. Together we are moving closer to the edge …