On the Verge

Music from the Heart: More of Jesus by Mylon LeFevre & Broken Heart

We are created for more. More glory, more greatness, more of the the manifest presence of God in every moment in which we draw breath. Why, then, do I so often feel like I am waiting for something to happen, like I’m chasing after some elusive destiny that will never be mine?

Recently I seem to keep hearing things like, “You’re on the verge of something,” and “Breakthrough is coming.” My frustrated reply to these sentiments goes something like this: “I’m TIRED of being ‘on the verge’ of something! I want to be right smack dab in the middle of something!”

The “something” here is a living, breathing, life-altering move of God – in me, on me, all over me, and through me. Where IS that? And WHY is it not RIGHT HERE – RIGHT NOW?

I don’t pretend for a nanosecond to know the answer to any of these questions. All I can offer is the desperate cry of a heart that is craving more – more of everything God is and does and has for me, His daughter.

The dictionary defines “verge” as, among other things, “a limiting belt, strip or border of something.” Hmmm. Is it possible that my being always “on the verge” of some great move of God in my life somehow indicates that there is a “limiting border” that is held in place by, oh I don’t know, maybe … me? Could it be that there is something in me that is the reason why that breakthrough has not yet materialized? Perhaps a lack of faith, or a sense of unworthiness to be the recipient of all God has for me, or maybe plain and simple fear. Whatever it is, I want it gone.

What about you? What is it that hinders you from all that God longs to do in you and through you? Do you feel like you are always “on the verge” of something where God’s purposes and plans for your life are concerned? Do you long to press past the “verge” and dive head-first into the living, breathing, life-altering move of God in you, on you, all over you, and through you – and all that goes with it? Are you craving more?

Me, too. So, what do we do now? I don’t exactly know, but it is probably something different for you than it is for me. Whatever it is, let’s ask God to reveal it, then let’s do it! That sounds simple enough, doesn’t it? Can it really be that easy? Have we (I’m speaking primarily to myself here) really made things so stinking complicated and involved that we have missed the obvious – pray and obey? Ummm, next question, please.

Seriously, though, I’m ready to get on with whatever comes next. I’m thinking along the lines of some strategically placed dynamite and blasting this “limiting border” to smithereens. You in?

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more
than all we ask or imagine, according to His power
that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church
and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations,
for ever and ever! Amen.

Ephesians 3:20-21
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One Response to On the Verge

  1. Miles says:

    I lived there for years. At times I felt like I would grow old and die there. I’d had encounters with God that had gotten me past huge hurdles of me before, but this time I couldn’t even tell what the verge was.

    This time, there wasn’t really a big encounter with God. But somehow, as I found the faith to try things I wasn’t even sure I believed, as I found the faith to try things I was fairly certain I *didn’t* believe, I found myself over that border. It was like falling off a cliff it was so easy. I’m still falling.

    It’s amazing. It’s powerful. It’s God.

    I don’t understand it all. But I think a pair of quotes from the special features on the _Faith Like Potatoes_ DVD capture essential parts of it, at least for me.

    “We’re not doing things and asking God to bless it. We’re asking God what we should do and then he provides.”

    “One thing you’ve got to understand about miracles is that God requires faith. It’s not a case of ‘maybe’, or ‘it doesn’t look too good to me’. As soon as you put the word ‘if’ in between, you’ve had it.”

    I know God doesn’t mind me asking him things that include “if”. But to get past the verge, I think there comes a point we have to say, “If God is real, I have to try this” and step out in faith. Even if we aren’t quite sure what we’re stepping out into.

    FWIW, that’s where I’ve been lately WRT this! Blessings, sister!