I mentioned in a prior post that I am a confessed and recovering control freak. When I mentioned this earlier in the week to a close friend, her reply was “Recovering?” She was, of course, questioning this part of my statement. She knows me well enough to know that “recovering” might be a bit of a stretch. I quickly defended myself by stating the obvious: “Admitting you have a problem is the first step toward recovery.”
Okay, so I may have not gotten far past this first step yet, but actually admitting this is a very big deal. All you fellow control freaks, (step out of your denial for a moment), you are smiling right now and nodding, as you know this to be true. Confessing that you have a hard time letting go of control is not easy. Since most of us are also perfectionists, admitting this problem forces us to also acknowledge that we have fallen short of some standard, no matter how unrealistic or self-imposed it is.
This week, once again, I have been brought to a place of self-examination by the lyrics to an old, familiar hymn. The song is I Surrender All. In digging into the simple but profound concept of total surrender, it is not necessary to look any further than the first verse:
All to Him I freely give
I will ever love and trust Him
In His presence daily live.
As I was preparing this song to include in this morning’s worship set, I began to examine my own heart in light of these familiar words. I had to ask myself, “How much of me have I withheld from complete and total surrender to Him? How much of my time, my abilities, my goals, my dreams, my affection and allegiance – have I really come to a place of total surrender? Have I let go?”
The honest answer is, “No.” The rest of the answer is, “But I am learning to.” Even this morning, as I filled in as a guest worship leader with a band that I have never played with before, I had to let go of the control and not be consumed with how things sounded and whether or not I was adequately prepared. And when I did, the Lord came. He came, and in His presence, I was free and comfortable.
So here is your challenge, Dear Reader. Examine your heart for those areas where you need to release the control to the One who knows you best and loves you most. Choose to let go, and bask in the freedom that follows.
This is not a matter of convenience or comfort or enhancing our relationship with Jesus. This is a matter of survival. One look at the evening news and it is obvious that we are in a day when man’s “wisdom” and puffed up strategies on how to “fix” our country’s and the world’s problems are being exposed as miserable failures day in and day out. OUR ONLY HOPE is complete and utter surrender into the hands of our God. HE will cover and protect His children. HE will provide for every need. HE will defend the widow and the orphan. HE will lead us beside still waters and cause us to rest under the shadow of His wing.
Whatever you are carrying that is weighing you down, that thing that keeps you awake at night, that consumes your thoughts day in and day out – let it go. Give up the control. Let Him take it. His shoulders are big enough to carry it. Surrender – and walk freely into your destiny!