Sometimes I feel so close to Jesus that I can almost taste the sweetness in the air as His fragrance seems to permeate the air around me. Other times, I don’t feel Him quite so close, but must rely on the simple truth that He is faithful, and that even though I don’t “feel” Him, I know He is here. Tonight falls into the latter category.
As I sit here listening over and over again to a couple of songs that are deeply ministering to my dry and thirsty spirit, I am once again overtaken by the immenseness of His love for me. Tears flow readily as I drink in His goodness. I don’t know why He loves me so much, nor can I explain why He has chosen me, an immeasurably imperfect vessel, to carry out His kingdom purposes in this generation. But He does, and He has.
So here I sit in a darkened room, with lyrics declaring His faithfulness and music that soothes my soul washing over me like a cool and refreshing waterfall on a steamy Texas summer day.
“All I ever know is Jesus, You are faithful to the end.”
These are words I have spoken over and over as I have recounted to wounded women the part of my story that includes a broken marriage and the unbelievably dark clouds that shrouded my heart month after month as I underwent deep emotional healing. In my darkest moments, when I felt completely and utterly alone, the only thing that gave me the strength to draw my next breath was the knowledge that Jesus was faithful. It was the grace that I found woven through the tapestry of my heart through a lifelong love relationship with Him that enabled me to keep going through the process of healing. When I didn’t know anything else, I knew the character of my God. I knew He was with me, even though I couldn’t always feel Him.
As we face uncertain times and the unrest that naturally accompanies seasons of transition and change, of this one thing I am most certain: Jesus is faithful to the end. He will never leave me or forsake me. He did not bring me here for anything other than His divine plans for me – the plans to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me hope and a future. Of this I am sure.
Keep standing, dear friend. Don’t sit down. That which has been conceived in you is about to be birthed into the glorious fulfillment of the destiny for which you were born. We don’t have to understand it all right now. He will reveal all truth to us in His time. Until then, let us remain steadfast, continuously reminding ourselves and one another that He is faithful to the end – that He is faithful to complete the good work that He has begun within us.
“The LORD gives strength to his people;
the LORD blesses his people with peace.”
Psalm 29:11
