Chocolate or Vanilla?

Music from the Heart: Every Move I Make by Passion Worship Band

It’s a little after three AM, and I was awakened by a dream a little while ago. Actually, I woke up almost singing.

I lead worship for an outreach church called The River Fort Smith. The River is a sister church of City Christian Fellowship, which we sometimes refer to as the “mother ship.” I played with the CCF worship team for a while before my hand was seriously injured in a rollover accident in May of 2006. It was nearly a year before I was able to play again, and several more months before I was able to play for any length of time. Since then, the Lord brought other keyboard players into the mix, and I was free to fully pursue my true passion: providing a meaningful worship experience for the precious people of The River.

In my dream this morning, I was at a rehearsal of the CCF worship team, sitting near the keyboard player, observing. I had the opportunity to sing with the background vocalists if I wanted to. I was sitting there pondering whether or not I wanted to sing with the group or just enjoy the worship service from the congregation. The reasons for and against singing with the team that morning kept rolling over in my head, and I woke up before I made a decision. I woke up singing, “Every Move I Make.”

I believe that what the Lord was showing me was that sometimes we are faced with choices that we struggle with in our desire to find the perfect will of God. In our effort to step only into that perfect will, we hesitate to make any move at all for fear of it being the wrong one, so we do nothing.

Granted, there are some decisions we must make when a clear direction one way or the other is necessary and we must seek His will and be obedient. But other times we are faced with options that are equally good and beneficial, and we will be blessed in whichever one we choose.

When we are walking in true freedom and in close relationship with Him, we are sensitive to His voice and leading. We KNOW when He is pulling us back, saying, “No, don’t go there.” We can also know that sometimes He says, “Here, you can choose either of these, and whichever you want is fine with Me.” It’s like being asked, “Which kind of ice cream do you want – chocolate or vanilla?”

Legalism binds. Relationship brings freedom. Jesus showed us the difference in John 15:15 when he said, “I no longer call you servants … instead, I have called you friends.” In the same chapter, He instructed us to abide in Him. When we are in Him, we can know true freedom because we know where the boundaries are. It’s like children on a fenced-in playground, free to run anywhere inside the fence. They can choose to play on the monkeybars or the swings or the merry-go-round.

The encouragement here is this: don’t take life so seriously that you over-spiritualize every little aspect of it and miss out on the pure joy of just being in relationship with Him. Take your relationship with Him seriously and don’t trivialize it; but enjoy the freedom to run and play and dance and be His child. It’s His heart for you. Something to ponder until next time …

“The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.”
Zephaniah 3:17
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2 Responses to Chocolate or Vanilla?

  1. Yes, yes, yes, yes, YES! I remember the first time I had to make a big decision and God clearly told me, “You decide”. I had a really hard time believing it was God, even though I knew it was. Legalism is about Control. Control makes us puppets. God doesn’t want puppets. He wants family, friends, and a bride for Jesus.

  2. Thanks so much, Miles! It’s good to know someone is actually reading this stuff. Sometimes I feel like I’m sending it out into the “cosmic void,” but I know that I am being obedient and continue to pray that someone will be ministered to on some level by what is written here. Thank you for taking the time to respond.